Reason for the season

Went to ben's church today, and boy it was.. Really not my thing. With all due respect, the whole service was so thoughtfully planned out, band was amazing, acapella group sang well, music was captivating, but honestly.... Everything was so emotionally charged and to be in the midst of it, so unconnected, so devoid of their passion, so unable to understand, so completely lost, it kinda made me disinterested. Maybe I can't feel it yet (maybe I will never) but seeing those people go up and give their whole to one being, makes me feel very.... Ugh just confused and unable to understand.